I have been away for a while... not geographically speaking, but I have been away from this blog. Life... got in the way I suppose I will lamely say.
I could report that the reason for my absence was that a new relationship was in the works and that all of my spare time was being spent being wined and dined by Mr. Might be Right... but then I would be lying... and seeing as I have been very honest up to this point, I see no reason to change now. Nope, in fact, I was on the online dating site for 1 month and then ran for the hills. I did a dash...I jumped ship... I didn't renew my subscription. But the fact that I hung on for the entire duration of my 1 month subscription was kind of like making it to the finish line of a marathon. I know this sounds dramatic, but if you've read any previous posts- I tend to bolt after a week... or even a couple of days. So yea me! Right?
I did manage to take down a couple of numbers and email addresses before bailing, and have even... yes... wait for it... met some real live people... in person! I know - bold move. But wait, it gets better - after meeting for the first time, I actually ventured out of the house again to meet a second time! What is wrong with me?! Nothing ... because behind all of that was the usual babble of "yeah, but he said... " and "he..." and and and. Oh inner voice of no reason I would have missed you if you had left me now! No worries about that happening accidentally...
On top of that, I am realizing that when I do actually go out on a date and meet someone new - that I am... quirky. When I am out at a cafe/restaurant, I kind of get this vision of Meg Ryan in When Harry Met Sally - this woman who waiters smirk at due to her inability to just place a simple straightforward order. Folks who aren't prepared just stare at me blankly and wonder why bother? But it's all yum! - but for a meat and 2 veg guy, dating me is like dating an alien. I am finding that it's like I have some big secret that I am trying not to reveal up front because I don't want to scare them away, so I kind of mumble it under my breath like I did when I was younger and had to ask the person at the check out counter for a box of condoms. For example, we go to a cafe for dessert and I order my coffee...I look left, look right - to make sure he is out of earshot, then say, "decaf soy cappuccino please...and with that a side of gluten free something or other"... geez! Oh and let's throw in that I am a pescatarion. A what?! I eat seafood, but not any other meat... it all make sense to me but at times like that I can't see my Facebook status quickly changing to "in a relationship" any time soon... Sigh...
Which is the real reason I was prompted to write today. Facebook. When you have a profile, one of the questions that you can fill out is your relationship status. When you do actually fill it in, the result is posted up on your page for all to view and comment on. It even posts it with a little heart next to it which I guess is meant to somehow softens the blow when you write "single" as your status - or better yet, when a recent ex or even not ex who you just had an argument with posts "single" - ouch! I find I feel my heart sink when I suddenly see an ex or what seems like everyone and their dog post "in a relationship" with a little heart next it. I know I know - I should be happy for them - and I am... but... how did my ex get a girlfriend already?! What does she see in him that I missed? Or maybe it's that I did all the hard work sorting him out and now he is ready for the next woman...I am not completely serious about that last comment, but come on - who hasn't thought that at some point in their lives?
A guy that I met on the dating site posted that he was "single" and a load of people gave him the thumbs up. A thumbs up that he's SINGLE!
I wondered - are they happy that he is single because it's good for him to spend some time on his own to find himself because it's been so hard for him to let go...because he is too clingy and can't read the signs that it's over and that this was a big move for him to admit he was single and that it has taken him months of therapy to just say the word...
...or perhaps because the ex was so icky that they are rejoicing that he is rid of her...but then what does that say about his taste in women and why would he stay so long with someone who was just wrong and and and...
Ok - I am only joking... but you can see how that site could mess with someone's head... If they weren't as well adjusted as I am...perhaps there should be a sub status option for relationship status, "level headed" or "a complete mess"...can help to clarify things for those of us wondering from afar...
